Panagiotis, 33

The worst thing is when you don't have anyone to talk to who can understand the problem

My name is Panagiotis and I am 33 years old. How did I end up taking psychotropic drugs? I grew up without love and I had to fight for my children's rights. I pointed out to a lot of people that I wasn't feeling well, but they didn't do anything because they might want to avoid a fight and they just felt sorry for me. I noticed that nobody was doing anything and I couldn't help but defend myself with aggression. I was a child and couldn't defend myself in any other way, because a child can't move out and at the same time knows that it won't get out of this situation. My mother didn't want to or doesn't want to admit that she has mental problems and didn't want to be helped. Instead, she manipulated me and had me committed to a psychiatric ward when I was 17. B. a neuroleptic called Risperdal and that's when the side effects started, z. E.g. erectile dysfunction, orgasmic dysfunction, etc. I later had suicidal thoughts, which I am sure came from the neuroleptics. So I was given the antidepressant Cipralex (10 mg). This made me very impulsive. I was prescribed more medication without looking to see if the antidepressants were the cause. I got Orfiril and because I gained a lot of weight from it and got extremely tired, I then got Seroquel Prolong and that also made me tired, but it wasn't taken seriously. They threatened to fix me to force me to take the medicine. I ended up taking it "voluntarily" because the thought of being fixed was cruel. B. Citalopram 20 mg and Sertraline 100 mg. Underneath, I continued to experience severe sexual side effects. I took psychotropic drugs for a total of ten years, although I haven't taken any psychotropic drugs for about 6 years. "In the first few months after I stopped taking the medication, the problems improved only slightly." The numbness is the same except I got a stronger erection and the orgasm/ejaculation is a little better, but it's still very unsatisfactory. My psychiatrist says it's psychological, so it's "natural" and not the medication caused. I also asked him how it was that before I started taking psychiatric drugs I didn't have any problems with orgasm, problems with erection, problems with ejaculation or numbness. But I got the same answer: It's psychosomatic that it's like this now. I can't get help because nobody understands the problem. I'm not taken seriously either. The doctors think that I am like this or suffer because I don't have a partner. But before I started taking psychiatric drugs, I hadn't had a girlfriend either, and I was happy because my sexuality was excellent and very satisfying. I had very good erections and ejaculation was really good, I enjoyed masturbating, my genitals were very sensitive and I was very sensitive to stimuli. Now I no longer get tingles when I see a woman I like , because my gender doesn't react at all, as if it didn't exist. It torments me a lot, although I've accepted the situation and I'm trying to make the best of it. "The situation is very painful and the worst thing is when you don't have anyone to talk to who can understand the problem."
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