Simon, 35, of Venlafax

It was only years later that I found out about PSSD and it dawned on me

>> Read this story in German. My name is Simon, I'm 35 and I'm from northern Germany. I have suffered from PSSD since I was 17 now. Below I will share why I took SNRIs or were prescribed them. At the age of 15, my parents separated and I moved to another city, which was about 100 km away from my old home. As a result, of course, I had to change schools, which of course isn't really nice at that age, because it meant I couldn't see my friends as much. I also didn't get along well with my new classmates and was bullied. I endured school for two years until I finally dropped out after the ninth grade. During this time, my mother bought me a 125cc motorcycle so that I could go back to my old home, at least at the weekends. I was feeling bad at the time, so I went to see a psychologist. I described my problems to him, whereupon he postponed Trevilor (venlafaxine) for me. "It should be noted that the conversation lasted less than 10 minutes." At that point I was still naïve enough to trust the doctor completely, so I took the pills. The very first evening I started sweating and felt so uncomfortable that I could only lie in bed. After a day, the symptoms disappeared, so I continued taking the drug. I quickly realized that the ejaculation took a long time and it was difficult to "come". Before I took the drug, I had a very high libido, which I remember well. Since the whole thing happened at an age when you are still developing, the changed situation naturally eroded my self-esteem. The worst was the feeling of not knowing what was going on with you. After I got off the drug, ejaculating worked like it used to, only the orgasm was all but gone and the libido was zero. The "orgasm" if you can still call it that, I only noticed very slightly on the penis, which is still the case today. Most of the time I don't even feel anything. I also noticed how many emotions such as joy but also sadness have disappeared. At that time I didn't see any connection with the drug and I didn't know anything about PSSD. Nevertheless, I researched hundreds of hours on the Internet, visited one doctor after another and tried countless medications. I've been to every urologist I could find in the area, had multiple MRIs, tried hypnotherapy, and been to sex therapists. The whole thing cost me several thousand euros because many of these doctors had private practices. "I was also in group therapy for a long time because all the doctors said the problems must be of a psychological nature, since nothing could be determined physically." I was prescribed dozens of other antidepressants, which I also took. I have never had any positive effects from these. It was only years later that I found out about PSSD and it dawned on me. At least it felt good to know what was wrong with me after all these years. At that time I still thought that the condition might stay like this for a while, but that a cure would surely be discovered soon. Well, as I said, I'm 35 now and there's still no light at the end of the tunnel. I've gotten used to the situation and I'm living a good life so far. I have a son, a nice house, just finished my master's degree and I'm happy as far as PSSD can make it. I've had many relationships, but unfortunately they keep breaking up, which of course is due to the lack of libido and lack of emotion. Everyone's symptoms are a little different. What frustrates me the most is the completely non-existent libido, which, as you can imagine, leads to significant problems when together with a woman. I would very much wish that there would soon be a remedy to at least be able to enjoy sexuality for the rest of one's life.
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